We’re two short days away from our trip to San Diego and I’m feeling completely overwhelmed. I want to tidy the house before we leave but can’t seem to find the time to do it between the packing and the clingy little monster that used to go by the name Henry. He wants to be with me all the time and in my arms. A second tooth is starting to come out and I believe that’s the root (pun!) of his clinginess. He’s also somewhat reverted back to crappy nights. Last night he was up screaming every 3 hours. I’m working hard to convince myself that once that damn tooth comes out that he will go back to being my perfect little angel.
If I’m being totally honest with myself, I think underneath all these feelings of stress is the massive fear I have of going back to work in 6 short weeks. Where the hell has the time gone? Just a year ago I was saying goodbye to coworkers as I prepared for a 4 week vacation before going on maternity leave (that vacation was cut a week short by Henry’s early arrival). Yesterday I sent out an email to my boss and our admin assistant to have them set up my systems access, get my blackberry in order and figure out accommodations for me. I practically cried the entire time I typed my email. I spoke to the supervisor of Henry’s daycare today to prepare for his integration into it and she was saying that at the moment, most of the kids in the baby class can walk. I worry my little guy won’t walk in time and I don’t want him to be left behind while all the other babies run and play. Ok, I got to stop all this, it’s making things worse.
For now I’ll concentrate on trying to make our plane ride to San Diego as pleasant and worry free as possible and then once there, just enjoy myself (and the possible free babysitting!).
And just for the fun of it, some more recent pics