I’ve always been a tad superstitious. Like as a kid, I would make sure to never walk on any cracks in order to avoid possibly breaking my mother’s back. It became almost obsessive. I remember once accidentally stepping on a crack and became very anxious that I had harmed my moms’ back somehow. Anyways, as I grew older, I got a little less OCD about things like that but I find myself having a bit of a relapse.
A few weeks ago, after feeding Henry around 1am, I put him back in his bassinet and he started making “I’m about to wake up” noises so I started chanting in my head “please sleep, please sleep” over and over again and he quieted down. Now I know the two have no correlation between each other, but my mantra has been reinforced several times over the past few weeks where 90% of the time when I do my little “please sleep” mantra, Henry will quiet down. So now I’m thinking he must be reading my energy or brainwaves or something, whatever it is, I can’t stop now. I always have to do my mantra when he starts squirming. Again, I know that my mantra has nothing to do with him actually settling down, but for some reason I can’t help believing it helps a little and I’d rather have this:
Oh and today I woke up to Henry giving me the biggest smiles. I thought he was really REALLY happy to see me until I heard him fart for like 20 seconds straight, then he gave a little giggle. Men….